my heart is being made new

well today is father’s day.. 1 of 365 that we celebrate each year… and what makes this day any different than any other? Well 1 huge factor is not our earthly father but our Heavenly father…

just this past week i had the wonderful opportunity to talk to someone about what i believe and why i believe it as truth.. at the time it was a struggle to come up with the “right” words to say… b/c deep down i knew what i spoke of was the truth.. but like anything in life we all have questions about the things we believe in and follow… and for the past few days i have been thinking hard about this God i serve.  Why do i believe this God.. why do i believe the Word of God?… why do bad things happen to myself and to other “good” people in this world?

If this God in which i adore.. take my uncle, my dog, and my best friend friend from me?….  I have no earthly idea why such an amazing God of miracles allow such things to happen.. but that’s just it.. i have no earthly idea… my mind cant grasp the thought or the concept of such a greater power… 

today while driving home i allowed my mind to be completely silent.. the radio still was playing.. the windows were down and the wind was blowing all around.. and before me was the sky above me… and for a split second i thought outside of myself.. Carissa you are 21 yrs old.. and u have a whole life before you… my best friend didnt make it 21.. my uncle didnt make it to 22.. and here i am at 21.. and it hit me hard… really hard.. that there is something more.. then just the air i breathe and the ground in which i walk upon… With everything in me i believe their is a God.. because i know that when i lost 3 of the most valuable things in my life.. God was still there.. the peace within my soul was still present.. the world around me kept going and couldnt relate to my pain my lost.. but my heavenly father could… he gave his only son for me.. he stepped in and watched his son die on a cross just so see me be me..

like i told this person in which i spoke to.. i cant sit here and tell you i have all the answers to all the questions you have.. but i know that it takes some kind of faith to believe in anything.. and i have put all the faith i have into this belief there is a higher power.. that he created the heavens and the earth… and he created me.. and that deep down i know right from wrong.. and if this is wrong.. wow i have been fooled for the past 16 yrs of my life.. and that is some serious blindness…

sure days are tough and i want to fall to my knees and pray that God take all the doubt and pain away…. but what if he did what if in a split second he changed his mind and allowed nothing but good things to happen….

thats right u know what would happen.. we wouldnt need him any more.. he would just be our creator and we would be his created.. but the Lord wanted.. yes wanted more than just a created being.. he wanted a relationship.. with each of us..

so if God does exist and the bible is the truth… and we take this jump of faith and truly go out on a limb.. what do we have to loose? really?

what he promises for his children is nothing but greatness.. why not allow him to be your Abba… your daddy… your father on this father’s day..

take that leap of faith like i did 16 yrs ago.. ill promise you one thing… after its all said and done you will be different regardless of the end result.. and if we die and dont continue our life after earth.. at least you lived your life every day to Glorify an amazing creator… your daddy.

God Bless